raz_a_ma_taz

Sun, 25 Oct 2009 06:23:28 GMT

So i havent posted in quite some time and it is what it is- its quite late and i shouldnt even be up. i had a good day with some old friends and i had a small upset of evening brought on by my own thoughts and issues which at one point had to do with another. i was told something which was perhaps meant to never to be told to me and was also or definitely is none of my business and it upset me. however i have come to the direct conclusion that it is nooot my issue and therefore i should just let it be. I should stick to my own issues and let another's issues be another's issues for they shall never be my issues or my worries again. things which have to do with others are not and have never really been my fault. very few ppl know what i am talking about- but talking about it and getting it out- even at this hour - helps me- whatever the outcome of someone else's life - it has nothing to do with me and therefore i should not care- i feel better for not

to whom it may concern

Thu, 25 Jun 2009 04:39:45 GMT

I just would like to say thank you to everyone who reads this- i just want you all to know that you are a wonderful person who deserves the best- if we havent talked in a while i hope you are well!!!- no i did not drink the cool aid! i just want everyone to be happy!!

Fri, 12 Jun 2009 03:47:00 GMT

I think im finally free

im silly like that

Mon, 18 May 2009 19:37:25 GMT

I found this funny site that i wish was magical.

this is amazing http://www.real-wishes.com

but it has this fun digital

wishes

meow

Mon, 20 Apr 2009 02:46:21 GMT

Some days i wish i was Catwoman- that is all

Fri, 03 Apr 2009 02:24:03 GMT

Dear assfaces at supernatural
WTF!!! NOT COOL MAN
love
Aveva and Debbie
P.S if you could give Jensen Ackles my number and Jared Padelecki Debbie's number- we would forgive you
say hi to your mother for me

ima weirdo

Thu, 02 Apr 2009 02:44:55 GMT

Does anyone else find it a bit odd that Michelle Trachtenberg who is 23 is playing a young teen to zac efron who is like 21 i think a bit odd i find- does anyone other than me really care? i dunno just a thought- veeva out! off to province town tomorrow with kiki!! NH this weekend with laura!!! and then opening day on monday with christina!!! wohoo!

Tue, 31 Mar 2009 03:04:46 GMT

so awful thought i had while talking to jr- what if someone mistakes a pedegg for a vibrator- too much? too gross?

a bunch o things

Sun, 22 Feb 2009 17:47:24 GMT

You ever find yourself in a major Dejavu! I did the other day- i was at a friends and she said something and i felt something and there it was that feeling, feeling of knowing i would be here someday that the events that have occurred, the events that will occur are meant to be- so weird. In other news thanks to certain friend i have been addicted to ben folds (ahem ahem- thanks ashley). its weird how busy i have been lately friends are the greatest thing ever- and i dont want to jinx anything but im applying for this job i really want and hope i get- its right up my alley and my old boss wrote me this really great letter of reference- i miss working for roberta she was a great boss and an amazing person. im really excited cus tonight a video my brother edited is going to be on the oscars!! im sooo proud of him!!
anywho thats a bit of me to share with your grand kids- so much else is happening but i dont have time- the world is an ever changing place and its crazy to think we live on it!
-veeva out

bahh

Mon, 01 Dec 2008 21:07:35 GMT

For some reason i feel as if i have lost friends lately- i dunno maybe im just weird and thinking about silly things cus i dont want to go to class.- bahhhhhhhhhh class!

argh

Mon, 29 Sep 2008 04:43:44 GMT

So my birthday is this month- and im kinda excited for it kinda not- this month is going to be soooo busy - between school and work and high holidays i just hope i get to see people and actually enjoy my birthday- i know i have to work on my birthday but im hoping ben will make me home made lasagna and my mom is making me cake- if anyone wants to wish me a happy birthday in person on sun october 26th i will be at cabin fever from 12-5

Life and death

Thu, 17 Jul 2008 19:43:05 GMT

So a family friend passed away this morning. It was really sad he was really sick and pretty much waiting to die, which is an awful thing to say but the truth. It made me think of life and how we should really enjoy it. after looking back on my passed experiences i am really happy and grateful that ive had the experiences i have had and met the people i have met. im happy, and after reading many of my friends lj posts and after talking on the phone with many of them its good to know that they are happy as well. It is my deepest wish that both I and the people that i care about be happy throughout the greater parts of our lives so that when death comes for us we can all look back with no regrets as i am truly hoping mr weiner did when he passed away this morning.

worrying and the letter d

Thu, 19 Jun 2008 16:28:30 GMT

i dont know why i worry so. it really wages on the skin- i need to have faith in sooo much and on a good day i do i just dont understand how i let myself worry about whether or not i did something wrong or somebody got upset with me or over silly issues. i know its not worth it but yet i still do it. i also think that we underestimate the importance of the letter d in words since the d on the keyboard i am using is in need of repair and i am trying not to use it as much as possible but finding hard to do.

AMAZING

Wed, 21 May 2008 05:50:09 GMT

omg!! seahawk was playing on family guy!!!- the episode where peter becomes a pirate- i love learning- i will miss music class- family guy has gone up on my awesome scale- i wish when i laughed a group of pirates would laugh with me- or PIRATE NINJAS!!!!

Oh i believe in yesterday

Wed, 20 Feb 2008 19:06:34 GMT

Ok so today in between doing a bit of homework i read some of my old lj entries. I really wish i could go back to some of those days and relive them. what i wanna know is why don't i feel about college today the same way i did then? I mean i can have fun at school and stuff but what happened- is it cus i went abroad? or did we all change- do ppl even still read my lj - i hope so - i wanna feel confident in my friendships and cus i wanna do things- gosh darn it this is my last semester at college- i wanna go to shows and go on walks again and go to midnight movies and randomly have pillow fights or something? I can't wait to watch the eclipse tonight i just hope that it will start to feel like old times soon- if only it was a meteor shower tonite- then i could wish on a star- hehe boy am i a dork- anyways - peace out my dears hope all is well with you!!

P.s - Live journal hates the way i write there is a red line over half the text.

grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

Thu, 11 Oct 2007 05:32:30 GMT

grrr why do guys have to be such dicks sometimes- just because they had a crush on you once and you have a boyfriend doesnt mean they can be bitter to the t every time you talk to them= uuuuuuuuuuuuuugggggggggggggggh men!!!!

i freaking give up sometimes

Tue, 07 Aug 2007 05:25:01 GMT

i cant do this much longer- so apparently my boyfriend is wishy washy about a number of things and is starting to show absolutely no interest in me. ive gained more weight and just ate a huge bag of chex mix. and apparentely becca sherman who is supposedly a friend of mine- was in boston a lil while ago and didnt even think to contact me- im apparently not worth contacting- by a number of ppl- i mean im not that great at keeping touch but i try- i was planning on writing letters this week - and i had a set my schedule for something on wed which i guess is on tues now so of course i cant go cus i made a commitment so ppl there are gonna hate me- great well this year is just starting off great- im gonna go try and cry some of the weight out of me and hopefully that will get me to sleep tooo. this sucks ass!!!

im going home

Fri, 18 May 2007 21:43:46 GMT

So if you care to find me
Look to the western sky!
As someone told me lately:
"Ev'ryone deserves the chance to fly!"
And if I'm flying solo
At least I'm flying free
To those who'd ground me
Take a message back from me
Tell them how I am
Defying gravity
I'm flying high
Defying gravity
And soon I'll match them in renown
And nobody in all of Oz
No Wizard that there is or was
Is ever gonna bring me down!

indecisive

Sun, 13 May 2007 16:41:45 GMT

so i go home in a week- and it just feels strange to think about it- to think about not being in this apt or with these ppl- i dont want to study for my finals and i dont want to finish packing and i dont want to read and i dont want to watch a movie and i dont want to go for a walk- i just dont know - its hard to decide what i want these days- do i want to stay here- do i want to go home- i am soo gonna suffer from culture shock and i know my friends and family are gonna laugh at me for getting excited over the silliest things- i am really excited about next weekend tho- apart from being met at the airport my my parents and ben (which is awesome) my Bro is gonna be there- i havent seen adam in like 5 months and i miss him soo much- he is my big brother and he and i have gotten kinda close since december and i think he is really gonna like what i bought him. Im just so indecisive- this semester really changed me and im afraid ppl back home wont know what to think of me- i dunno maybe im just nervous i mean thats to be expected right- anyways stephano (my italian friend) just called me and i might hang out with them tonite after we go out to dinner for jill and karen's birthday- tomorrow i have a final then i study then i am hopefully going out to dinner with hana- tuesday is my opera final of dooom!!!- then wednesday i have two finals - neither of which i am soo worried about since i only need a c- and i have a b plus in one and an A in the other and then i am done with school- thursday i go out to museums and finish packing and then im going out with the mexicans to central park- friday all of us are going to wake up early and see the sights- go out to il latrini and then see all of florence one last time from Piazza Michaelangelo- (tear)- and then at 430 on sat morning i leave florence- i dont wanna think about it- ugh why cant i be in two places at once!!!

Fri, 04 May 2007 12:01:26 GMT

Nothing comes easily
Fill this empty space
Nothing is like it seems
Turn my grief to grace

Wed, 25 Apr 2007 19:21:03 GMT

What happens in Vegas stays in Vegas,
But what if it don't?
What happens in my head stays in my head,
But sometimes it won't.
What if you knew what I was thinking?
Would it make you like "Whoa!"?
I don't wanna risk putting my foot in this
So I keep my mouth closed.

[Chorus]
All you hear is
"Uh uh uh uh uh uh"
Gonna button my lips so the truth don't slip
Uh uh uh uh uh uh
Gotta beep out what I really wanna shout
Whoops! Did I say it out loud?
Did you find out? (oow yeah)
I wanna have your babies
You're serious like crazy
I wanna have your babies
I see 'em springing up like daisies

Yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah
Some of my feelings keep escaping
So I make it a joke
Nonchalant I keep on faking
So my heart don't get broke
I'm in a big, big, big, big ocean
In a tiny little boat
I'll only put the idea out there
If I know it's gonna float.

[Chorus]
All you hear is
"Uh uh uh uh uh uh"
Gonna button my lips so the truth don't slip
Uh uh uh uh uh uh
Gotta beep out what I really wanna shout
Whoops! Did I say it out loud?
Did you find out? (oow yeah)
I wanna have your babies
You're serious like crazy
I wanna have your babies
I see 'em springing up like daisies
[ these lyrics found on http://www.completealbumlyrics.com ]

'Cause in my head there's a slot machine
And I'm betting you're the one in my hopes and dreams
La la la la la, la la la la la la la
La la la la la, la la, la la...
Trust me it'd scare you
If you knew what was going on in my brain
Trust me it'd scare you
That I picked out the church, or the schools or the names
If you knew it was all about you
Every wish, every candle, every coin in the fountain
Trust me it'd scare you

That's why I go, Uh uh uh uh uh, uh uh
Uhm... yeah

[Chorus]
All you hear is
"Uh uh uh uh uh uh"
Gonna button my lips so the truth don't slip
Uh uh uh uh uh uh
Gotta beep out what I really wanna shout
Whoops! Did I say it out loud?
Did you find out? (oow yeah)
I wanna have your babies
You're serious like crazy
I wanna have your babies
I see 'em springing up like daisies

All you hear is
"Uh uh uh uh uh uh"
Gonna button my lips so the truth don't slip
Uh uh uh uh uh uh
Gotta beep out what I really wanna shout
Whoops! Did I say it out loud?
Did you find out? (oow yeah)
I wanna have your babies
You're serious like crazy
I wanna have your babies
I see 'em springing up like daisies

There's one, there's another, there's one, oow...
Babies, babies, babies, babies...
I wanna have your babies
I... Yeah yeah ha ha and maybe you'll find out...

chose your own subject!!

Thu, 19 Apr 2007 14:45:48 GMT

My computer is in Umbria for a few days getting fixed------- BOOO
I am going to london in less than 12 hours------------------YAY
I have a lot of shit to get done in the next few weeks------ BOO
I come home in a month--------------------------------------YAY
More news at 11

Tue, 03 Apr 2007 09:20:49 GMT

simmons hates me- i dont if they want me back- and thanks to the office of registrar i dont know if i want to go back

The TIME of my LIFE!!!!

Fri, 30 Mar 2007 16:24:50 GMT

I had basically the time of my life in Greece - Island hopping and whatnot. so here are some things i did this vacation
1. had the best olive spread i have ever tasted
2. had starbucks greek style
3. had tradational greek food
4. went to a concert with marketing execs for the turkey football (soccer) team and watched a huge list of famous greek singers sitting in the front row eating fresh fruit and vegetables, drinking huge bottles of absolute vodka, throwing carnations at the stage- something which in total costed about 500 euro- ALL FOR FREE!!
5.Went to the acropolis and stood in front of the Parthenon.
6. took a catamaran to the top of a hill to view all of athens
7. watched the turkey- greece game at a local bar- we were offered tickets for free but there were too many of us to go.
8. Had a full beer (greek mythos beer) and enjoyed it
9. took a couple of ferries
10. partied in mykonos and dirty- danced with a greek girl and kept getting my ass grabbed by a young man named manoli- who i then spoke to about who he called my "friend"
11. watched the sunset on the ocean near 17th cent windmills
12. got stalked by a cat that we named Zorba
13. HITCHHIKED- oh tiger- hehehehe
14. Had an entire four course Meal - with two large fish as the entree home made desert and a constant flow of wine and water (oh it was Amazing!!!)- all for about 25 euro- if you are going to mykonos i def advise you to go- the owner was lovely
15. watched the sunset on OIA in santorini
16. Took a small boat
17. Walked up an ACTIVE VOLCANO in flats!!!!
18. Jumped off a boat into the MED Sea- def not as cold as the Atlantic
19. RODE A DONKEY- it was awesome
20. Sun bathed on a black sand beach
21. got a tan
22. got drunk
23. TRIED ABSINTHE!!
24. was the only one dancing in Murphys bar in Santorini
25. found my fav cookies
26. had a greek frappe overlooking the Med sea
27. had the crappiest ice cream EVER in a ghettoy restaurant in Athens
28. got into a convo about drugs with a greek taxi driver
29. almost beat up stoooopid greek kids
30. Ran threw the milan airport
31. LOST MY LUGGAGE- HEHE
32. got home to find my internet working and a suitcase full of my fav things- and my rents in are IN ITALY!!
all in all a GREAT WEEK!!!

Update

Thu, 22 Feb 2007 10:08:50 GMT

So i dyed my hair and I LOVE IT- it is reddish brown just like the picture of uma therman- except i dont look like uma i look like Aveva with redish brown hair- but i love it anyway. My roomate Kristen did it for me and they wouldnt let me look until it was all dried but i love it and it really brings out my eyes - I kinda get a bit more attention now but whatever. Ok well i am going to Budapest in 3 hours and I do believe i am off to Greece for spring break so this weekend budapest, the next two weeks Tuscany and the week after that BEN COMES!!! i am not excitec i swear- ok i cant lie i am THRILLED - ok and then after that Greece, Rome with the rents then possibly London depending on who i can in touch with over there. Things are shaping up quite nicely- i may not have any money when i get back but hey you only live once right?
P.s i cant stop listening to this song ever since i had a dream with it in it about 3 nights ago- weeeeiiiiirrrrrdddd